Returning from Belize

We returned from Belize just over a week ago now.  It is a strange thing, the heart, the mind, the thoughts, the feelings that come with new experiences, with changes, with growth. 

We were given a missions journal which really helped put our thoughts and feelings into words during our entire journey.  The pages started 7 days before we left, continued for the 10 days of our trip, and had a 7 day post trip journaling as well.

                                                                                                      

This journal really helped me see some areas in my life that I have been improving at - Grace, and areas that I need improvement in - Selflessness.  Taking a look, at the end of each day, of how Christ lived through you is a really challenging thing.  Each day we were recording facts, smells, sights, sounds, tastes, as well as the things we were being challenged on that day, serving, belonging, changing, feelings, helping, persisting, ect.

 

I hope that this is a practice that I will continue, to reflect on my days, to really see what God is doing and has done, to be able to grow, to praise God, to thank HIM for Who He is, for what He has done and is doing.

 

Today, I'm thankful for this journal, for a guide to bring me through some thoughts and feelings and help process !

I love this place!

How did this happen?

How did this happen?

My kids were playing in their room, creating and racing cars on tracks...while I was slicing some cheese, preparing dinner, just pondering the day and various things in my mind when Matthew called out, "Mommy, come see this track!".

And all I could think was 'whoa, hold on! When did this happen?! Mommy? me? But I'm just a kid myself!

Ha! Oh boy...I'm not sure if that ever happens to you, but it's happened before to me...in my mind...sure is strange!

It's a good day to be a mom :)

Little bits of happy

There's a break in the clouds, His glory coming down!

Perspective

Deuteronomy 11:18-19

¹⁸ Fix these words of mine in your hearts and minds; tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. ¹⁹ Teach them to your children, talking about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up.

During a time of rest and transition

During a time of rest and transition.

This is a very difficult stage for me. I love doing things, I very much do not like having nothing to do. But there are times when that might be what God is asking of you.

At a women's conference this past weekend, a song was refreshed to me for this time called 'Desert Song' The whole song really is just for such a time as this. I keep listening to it, over and over.

'all of my life, in every season, You are still God, I have a reason to sing, I have a reason to worship!' -Desert Song

I also had a high school student do a painting for my wall. I gave her freedom to do whatever she wanted. What she created amazes me, her talent and gifting is really incredible. Each day I find myself looking at it, and soaking up the truth of the verse she wrote from Psalm 46:10 "cease strive and know that I AM GOD". Can I just say, for a 'what can I do, what can I do?! ' heart, oh man! Cease striving! And KNOW! That GOD is GOD!

Ah. Breath in. Breath out.

Waiting. Listening. Or at least trying :)....